Hey y'all! It's been a couple days since my last post since I've been adjusting to college life and all. It's been sort of hard for me to write lately. Every time I open up my computer and begin to write my mind wanders off to lots of different places, which I now am beginning to embrace. Sometimes my emotions can be overwhelming and it seems as if I am feeling way to many things all at once, but the more I learn to love myself I come to accept this part of me that is prone to feeling things very deeply. College is quite a different place than life at home and I find myself feeling a little more lost and lonely than usual. These feelings can really take a toll on a person but I am learning to accept that this journey obviously won't be perfect and that is okay. So far I've had an interesting time trying to make friends due to all of all the COVID restrictions. I obviously haven't found my crowd of people yet and at first I felt this extreme pressure to find that very quickly, but now I am coming to terms with the fact that this will take time. I have also discovered that I can get homesick quite easily but I hope to grow to consider this place as a second home. I'm hoping I can use the time where I feel alone to grow even more and rely on myself instead of other people (hence my other post). There are many situations in my life right now where I feel I am lacking control and I am learning to let go and accept that I can't always have things be perfect or go my way. Throughout all this change even when I'm feeling down I try to stay smiling even when it is tough because I whole heartedly believe that everything happens for a reason. For those of you who may be feeling a little lost, hurt, or down I just want to remind you that tomorrow is always a new day and has the potential to be better than the last.
Today has been much more difficult for me than previous ones this week so I find it important to remind myself how to stay positive (and anyone else who may need it). One of the first things I would do would be to remind myself what things I'm grateful for (writing these things down helps even more). For me this includes a wonderful family, a great roommate, a college education...etc. This helps me to pull myself away from negative thoughts and focus on the good. Another is listening to music that reminds me of good memories or songs that focus on happiness. Most of the time for me this includes the Lumineers, Surfaces, and Post Malone. Another thing that has helped me is making myself go outside or make plans even when feeling down. Tomorrow I have plans to go hiking which I think will definitely be a healthy distraction.
Staying positive has always been hard for me when I'm feeling really down but I am working on being more mindful of the way I think and feel. I'm not great at it, but I'm slowly growing to become better and better. I hope this post helps anyone in a tough spot right now and helps you to feel less alone.
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